Getting that first step out of the door is the hardest part. I run a million and one excuses around my noggin’ for not going and have to beat them down with the reasons why I need to go, want to go, even. Any process requires this energy usuage on my part, but my daily walk needs me to go through this process each morning.
Once I get going, I am always thankful to myself that I did it. But it’s such a struggle to confirm my commitment. I think I need to do a list of my reasons for walking each day: a reaffirmation of my choice to expend this kind of energy in this way. I suspect that I have not fully bought into my decision.
Plan for tonight and tomorrow: list the reasons for walking every day.
PS. I did walk today again. That makes six days in a row.
2 comments:
Fantastic. I didn't get a chance to walk today because was stuck in an interview with this guy, then had to fight rush hour traffic to get home (which took all of an hour and I really, really needed to pee so I thought of you but didn't giggle because of dire bladder circumstance) and by the time I got home it was already dark.
So I am planning to go tomorrow morning. But it is already 2.30 my time.
You know, sometimes you got to let the monkey mind get on with it...the two sides of you fight its way out...let them talk while you pull on your socks and shoes and make your way out there. Once you are actually there, they fall silently. The trick is to ignore both sides. They just sap your energy.
I don't envy you your drives: from what you say, your traffic is way worse than ours.
Yes, the warring sides wear me out.
This is the main reason for my wanting to meditate again. Practicing just letting those thoughts go.
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