0939 - I couldn't remember my paychex login to retrieve the reports. had to do it 4 times. I have been having obsessive thoughts about death ever since MH died unexpectedly one weekend (3/10/12.) And since QV had his stroke (5/14/11.)
1158 - I got a cheese steak for lunch today with ketchup and mayo on it. It is yummy.
1227 - QV just called to tell me that we have to run out his old claim before getting the emergency claim so we will be short $800 every month. We are basically fucked really good now. He says he's going to find a way to get more money. When I show him this weekend how much we owe he's going to have heart failure.
1316 - I guess it is at this point where I learn to go with the flow. A am very tired. Bet depression is setting in again. going to go count some trip receipts.
1459 - I want to go to sleep. i haven't done anything on my personal todo list. i just looked at my list and my previous statement is not really true. Finished up to the letter c in setting up friends lists in FB.
1610 - I want to go home.The big snow storm is now to hit us Friday night into Saturday morning. 4 - 8 inches and icy roads. I am stopping for cake mix and whipped cream on the way home tonight. I've tortured myself enough. i think i am not going to do anything when i get home tonight. i am tired and I need a break. Since i plan on getting up during the night to journal if i wake up, I am going to give it a break.
1633 - looks like i may have to pay all of my Verizon and Directv bill at the time i cancel. That's not good. i'm signing off now because this is getting on my nerves.
1753 - Got the letter back from Pressler the debt lawyers and they don't like my answer so now I have to answer back at them. They want the court to find for them.
I think I'm going to have to get a 401k loan. I could cry.
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